Sunday was 3 months since Elijah was born. Three months of a whirlwind of emotions. Three months that has gone by much faster then the three months I was in the hospital. There are days when I wake up still thinking all of this is just a bad dream. A story from someone else's life. However it is my life, my reality. I have never been naive to the fact that life is not always perfect and good but I never thought about going through something like this. I never knew how people went through things like this and here I am in the midst of it all. Sometimes I have no idea how I am getting through the days. I know its by the strength of God that I am getting through each moment.
We finally ordered Elijah's headstone today. Another hard piece of the process. Although it was something I was not looking forward to doing it will be nice to have his name there when we visit his special place.
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I'm so glad you will have a headstone for your sweet boy. These emotions are definitely hard to fathom, especially when it's happpening to you. Thinking of you and Elijah at this three-month marker.
ReplyDeleteI don't know if this will provide any comfort, but I did find that after the third month I feel like I really started making progress towards healing. There are still bad days, of course, but the good days started becoming much more frequent. I hope this is the case for you too.
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Happy 3 month Birthday to Elijah. I was glad to finally see Carleigh's headstone up. I hated seeing just an empty spot without something there to recognize her.
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