Easter

Easter of last year we announced to our families that Gabrielle was going to be a big sister and that we were finally expecting! This year I was missing our baby boy so much. This year Easter took on a more deeper meaning for me. The fact that God sent his only son for us, he died for our sins, and rose again, means so much more then it did before. Easter is the reason I will get to see my son again and I am so grateful for that. This year I saw God in a different way. I saw him more as a father figure. A father who sacrificed his son for a world of fallen people. When I would give anything to have my son back its hard to comprehend something like that. And Mary...how did she go through that watching her son? I honestly never really thought about Mary, but now my heart aches for what she went through. Like I said Easter took on an entire deeper meaning for me this year.

On another note I almost spent Easter in the hospital! As if I did not get enough of the hospital this past year I had to stay the night there this weekend. I went into the emergency room with severe pain that ended up being a kidney stone. It was completely blocking things so they kept me over night. Lets just say the normal part of the hospital is not as pleasing as labor and delivery. I did everything I could to get out of their the next day. And God willing...I did!