2 Years

I didn't get a chance to post last week but we celebrated Elijah's 2nd birthday in heaven.  I can not beleive it has been 2 years since we held our sweet boy in our arms.   Time just passes by in a weird sense anymore, its hard to explain.  I can't beleive we have another bundle of joy in our family now either.  With Elijah's birthday falling on Halloween and our older daugther wanting to trick or treat it is hard to fit things in.  So the day before we went to build a bear and made a special bear to keep in honor of Elijah.  Gabrielle loves to do tangible things like that for him and it helps us as well.  We went to the cemetery and decorated for his birthday.  It was hard knowing I would not be going on his actual birthday but I had to remind myself if he was here we probably would have celebrated on a different day as well.  On his actual birthday we wrote messages on balloons and sent them up in the sky.  Gabrielle likes for us to hug and kiss the balloons so that we are sending our hugs and kisses up to heaven for Elijah, so we did ( :  I know Elijah is comforted by Jesus and there is no better place to be but that doesn't mean that my human mind does not think he would be better off in my arms.  Oh how I wish I had my 2 year old climbing all around the house.  I wish we had cars and trains scattered all over the floor, evidence that we do have a boy!  That will never change.  Happy Birthday sweet Elijah!  Missing you oh so much!